The current wait time for Predator for me is around 3:25. And all IllFonic had to do was buff FT so much that other people don’t want to play as Pred and get lit up 🤣 I’m not complaining I like these wait times!
IllFonic Big Brain Play
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Makes me slightly wish I still enjoyed the game like I used to.
But win or lose I dont have fun like I use to, so I see no point.
Woe is me~ lmao.
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You should look into some SSRIs. J/K depression is not a joke. But one common sign is you no longer enjoy the things you used to. Maybe you are suffering from some chemical imbalance and the problem is not the game itself?
I have depression but it’s not a chemical imbalance.
If it was I could get over it.
I’ve been depressed since I was 14, but, that’s not what’s really killing my interest with gaming.
It’s mainly me wanting to do something else.
Just not sure as to what.
I gotta find something new lol.
Its always a bit funny and surprising to me tho if ppl can see that.
Since I just mainly focus on joking around.
After a certain point being emo gets tiring lmao.
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I have depression but I have joy and inner peace as well. They rotate, some days are good some bad, mostly good though and I am thankful for my perspective on that. I been through some major trauma throughout my life and that leaves a scar when you heal from it. But who hasn’t suffered loss and pain in this world? Stay strong brotha.
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I’m really enjoying the challenge, it makes me have to pay attention
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Mehh would enjoy the wait time of i played as heavy as I did… but not looking to play a bitch predator that does instantly. Even with impenetrable… makes that perk useless. I’ll try today since i took a small break but if i cant find a good game I’ll just go back to doom or witcher
Your a big brain
and @NeonPred
If you don’t mind me asking… What is it like to have depression or even constant strong emotions? I had a brain injury when I was very young, and it has permanently f*cked my memory as well as making it so I don’t often have extremely strong emotions. The best way I could describe it would be that I still feel the emotions, just on a smaller scale and I am much more logical as a result. When I do have strong emotions, it is for a brief time and I often can get over it. I know it is not sociopathy or psychopathy because I still have morals and such, and still feel emotions. Except for rage in some scenarios where I am very predisposed to fight in a flight or flight scenario. Just wondering what it is like to have depression and/or constant strong emotional input.
Mainly annoying for me.
But after years I’m more just feeling exhausted more than anything else.
Sadly for me I just dont really enjoy anything that much anymore.
In conclusion it just sucks and everything tends to be boring.
When I was a kid however I was like a extremely miserable fuck who hated everything.
I wouldn’t say I have too strong of emotions. However, I do tend to think a lot about the negative people in life who have hurt me and this makes me feel shitty, no surprise there. The struggle is to control these thoughts so they don’t intrude too often. I practice meditation and the reading of sacred scriptures. This activity will sometimes propel me into a state of ecstasy (even better than mdma, w/out side effects). It’s really awesome that there exists such states of mind and I thank the Buddhas and God for them, as they are not easily accessible by brutish people.
In this life we are blessed to be born as humans. That’s how I feel. However there is evil in this world and people sometimes are consumed by it. It is wise to avoid these people in your life and do good to purify your own mind. Otherwise I cannot find a meaning for life other than it’s continuation and pleasure seeking. Instead I seek a higher reality to be reborn in, call it Buddha’s Pure Land or Heaven. It seems like an ideal goal worth striving for, especially when you realize you can reach them in this life and don’t need to wait for death and rebirth. The Mind purified is blissful and luminous as it ascends the states of meditation and prayer.
WIsdom is it’s own reward.
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