Also before I transitioned I FUCKING HATED MYSELF OMG. I haaaaaaaaaaaated myself the older I got, and the manlier I got. I was SOOOOOOO depressed with body hair, and without tits, and being seen and treated like a man my GAWD. I literally enlisted because I figured it’d be better to literally DIE “Normal” than come out. . . but then… Well…LOTS of shit happened, and I don’t really worship America or the US or the Military or White Christian God anymore, let’s just say that.
Over the last 2 years of my medical transition (because I came out years ago, and literally almost immediately went homeless lmao) my body has become a place I feel way more at home in. . . back in the day I HATED working out, and even though I was a good shot, and good with computers I wasn’t a motivated or happy marine. I wasn’t found in the gym often. . . but I’d always had an affinity for martial arts, and MCMAP was a HUGE interest for me, so I was really happy, and lucky when I went to Japan, and got all the way up to green belt certified. . .if I’d re-enlisted I’d definitely have stipulated a black belt certification as part of my re-enlistment package. . . Green Belt was where shit was getting serious too, and I was in Thailand when I got my training done. My instructor was a BAMF too. . . and now that I don’t hate my body??!?!?! I wanna work back out, and get back into MMA SO BAD. I miss who I was kinda, but not how I looked or felt like. I hate how I’m not taken seriously, and how I gotta look over my shoulder. Feels like I’m being punished by society for being myself.
I don’t know? Maaaaaaaybe? If I was them I’d have an onlyfans either way. . . but tbh they looked on the “adorably small” size ratio…but. . . I’ve seen growers in my day that surprised me so . . . I have NO idea. I think they refused to answer that question, because they considered it to be offensive tbh. I didn’t want to ask. I’ve met a guy who can fuck his own ass though, so . . . anything’s possible and it just depends on the individual lmao. The fucked up thing is that lots of intersex ppl are mutilated at birth if they have both, so . . . if they can’t it might be societies fault.
LMFAO, okay that’s funny. I have got to play that game series one day I swear I’m one of the few trans people I know who hasn’t.
As far as I’ve seen/researched it can in high doses, but I also went on a T-Blocker for a year. A really powerful one. I was down to like 0 T, and that actually. . . was TOO efficient for me. Cis women often have SOME T, so it was weird that I went so low so fast, which is part of why I think something else is up with me beneath the surface as it were. So my results are from a good regimen that I advocated for, and had my genius GF advocate for, because the Veterans affairs were definitely trying to fuck me over lmao. Still are. They skimp doses for all of us. I get supplemental HRT support from the Dark Web, because of that. The real great combo is Estrogen and Progesterone. THAT will cause quite an amazing breast development for anyone who wants em usually. Kinda depends on your genes, and your base shape. I’ve got a skinny/athletic base, so I’m doing a LOT better than some people do with their journey but . . . that’s a privilege. I ain’t gonna shit on chubby dumpy trans guys and gals. I got NO idea what their struggle is. You never know. One of my favorite people in the world was a Navy Vet, and my high school buddies dad. He blew the FUCK up one day cuz of a bad thyroid issue. Was the SADDEST fucking thing I ever witnessed. I was so happy when they finally got that thing removed and got him on a hormone regimen that allowed him to slim down. It wasn’t fair what suddenly happened to him.
