Day 328: They still don’t suspect a thing.
Really, I know I joke around a lot about it, but imo emotions are neither here or there. They can be useful or detrimental depending on the situation, and they’re fairly easy to ignore when nesseccary. Morals, on the other hand, is what restricts most people from doing anything of interest with their lives. And FTR I haven’t gotten an official diagnosis, as covertness aids people in underestimating me, but I’m fairly sure I’m a ‘dark empath’ lol (basically a psychopath with empathy, so I have an innate understanding of other people rather than having to study them so much - it has its advantages and disadvantages).
Just Suggestions part 2 electric boogaloo
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Yeah it takes one to know one. Interestingly enough I’ve generally had more positive experiences with those with ASPD or ASPD like tendencies.
I haven’t gotten an official diagnosis either, but multiple people in psych department at my uni have stated that I have very high functioning ASPD.
I can weakly feel emotions if I really try, but I can switch that off in an instant, and I generally keep it off by default.
Empathy is weird for me. I can logically understand the concept, and before my brain injury I actually used to feel it (just like emotions), but I can only really have it for my close family and my dog, and even then it’s extremely muted. Interesting enough it’s my dog that I have the most empathy for, however my care for him borders on obsessive and I would literally kill for him. I’ve been told by those same acquaintances in the psych dept. that I am most likely a disempathic high functioning sociopath. Meaning I can still form an attachment to something, however it is extremely rare, and I still have the capability for empathy, however it is weak and limited to a very close circle.
Because I used to feel emotions and empathy, I never had to spend much time studying others to learn how to mask, and is why generally people are very surprised when I tell them. It’s also why I’ve never struggled with humor.
Had an acquaintance who is an empath, and she was both terrified and intrigued by me. The fact that her observations told her that I was perfectly normal, but her empathy told her that there was nothing generally created a very confusing mix for her.
Now the people I’ve known who also have ASPD, as I previously stated were positive experiences. We’d generally enable each other to do whatever, but never really went after one another. Man I miss those days.
ASPD is a spectrum, and by my best judgement I fall somewhere between a psychopath and a sociopath. I don’t have the emotional outbursts of fury characteristic of sociopaths, but I do have some weak emotional capacity, so I’m not a full psychopath. Somewhere between the two and at a very high functioning level is where I fall.
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I can relate to the whole ‘kill for your family’ thing. Frankly, I’m happy for you, and good on you lol
I think the positive experiences with other ASPD people makes sense; reguardless of who you are or how your mind works, it’s always good to have someone who innately understands you (unless, of course, they are your enemy) - after all, humans want nothing more than to be understood. It’s why psychopaths and the like are so excellent at manipulation, and can be so seductive when we want to - and why I’m such an excellent psychologist XD
With reguard to your understanding of empathy, it’s hard to say whether you’re a dark empath or a psychopath who’s just had first-hand experience of empathy (from before your injury). Reguardless, it’s always good to be high-functioning lol
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Given you have the whole professional career thing, I’d say you’re also high functioning.
If I had to guess, it’s probably prior experience since I can’t seem to extend what little empathy I have to anyone outside the select few, and those few were already in my life pre-head injury, except for my dog, who I oddly have the most capacity for empathy towards.
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I don’t think that’s odd, really. Dogs and pets in general provide unconditional positive reguard towards their owners, and that can be a big boost to anybody reguardless of mental framework. Not to mention, even if they try to start a fight with you it’s generally adorable as fuck lol
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man it’s odd looking at this again now that i’ve come back to play this game again
*The Predator shield is terrible should’ve been a 5 cost Gear item Needs to have parry frames against Fireteam knives It should either give the wrist blades an additional attack in the combo causing a flashbang effect or increases the swap speed of itself into other weapons when shield is held up
Might as well put this here
Lol 1 gear point, its wrist launcher tier
I already know illfonic think about the shield which is why i’m willing to throw them a bone and let them have it as a high cost gear item (for hopefully improving the shield almost across the board)
Shield prevents dmg via energy
Medkits restore hp
because shield prevents dmg and therefore keeps predator healthy it serves a similar purpose as medkits
therefore Shield must cause the same or similar to Medkit
You and i both know illfonic is potato enough to think this logic tree is sound
Even though i agree in a perfect world this shield would be a 1 or 2 cost gear item alongside the buffs i mentioned
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Add full armor customization for Predator
From zero armor to heavily armored
This will affect stamina/speed and gear points